Christina Perri Pens Open Letter on Mental Health: ‘I Believe I Was Born With Depression’
On Friday (June 8), "Jar of Hearts" singer Christina Perri revealed some harrowing details about her childhood, which involved depression and thoughts of self-harm, but also how lifelong therapy saved her from such grief.
"I was 4 years old when I told my parents to tell santa not to bring me presents because i didn't deserve them," Perri started an open letter shared to Twitter. "Just like brown hair and brown eyes, i believe i was born with depression."
"I tried to hurt myself first, at 8 years old. that's when i started my life-long relationship with therapy, and thank god!" the musician continued, adding, "it's the greatest gift my parents ever gave me! i wouldn't be here without it."
Continuing her note, the 31-year-old "Thousand Years" star revealed she's been attending therapy sessions for the past 24 years, and explained that, while the twelve-step program aided her sobriety, she still has her rough days.
"Some days i'm certain i wont ever be ok and some days are a little lighter," Perri continued, "but ALL days i have to connect with someone. ALL days i have to be kind to myself and tell myself whatever feeling i'm having is going to pass."
Despite her strifes, the songwriter maintains she doesn't wish to "delete" that part of herself, that she's glad to speak candidly of her mental health struggles if it means erasing the stigma behind it.
In an August 2017 interview with The Mighty, the entertainer revealed her alcoholism and how she nearly resorted to suicide. She had just celebrated her fourth sober anniversary in March the year before. Although, on her road to recovery, Perri stated that music and the support of her loved ones helped wade her through those ordeals.
Perri, who married entertainment reporter Paul Costabile in December 2017, and recently gave birth to a daughter, Carmella Stanley Costabile, in January, also credits her healing to Costabile's "ability to forgive my bad days and love me through them" and her newborn who "gives me the most purpose to live."
In ending her moving message, the "Human" artist urged others to speak openly about mental health issues. "My heart breaks for those who don't, but please don't stop trying," she wrote. "Please tell ONE person. that one person will help you. you are loved and i love you."
If you are experiencing a mental health crisis, you are not alone. Many people experience similar struggles, and there are resources available to help. People in enduring a crisis are advised to use any of these sources for immediate help or assistance.